back again. think i'm in the blogging mood this weekend again. haha. so we're not going to malacca for holiday anymore. guess where we're going!! YEW TEE!!! what kind of holiday is that?! we're living in singapore, not malaysia leh! going to yew tee for holiday when you live in west coast is...kinda ridiculous. heh. i am still incredulous. aiyah coz that's where we're gonna move to in october and that's actually my uncle's condo apt and my family can't take enough days off to go to malacca so we're gonna treat the yew tee condo as our holiday resort. i don't know whether to be amused or disappointed. haha. granted, we have not lived in that part of singapore before and we also have not lived in a condo before. so it's still something new. but but but...ahh i need to blow some air. heh.

and i'm also not gonna do pilates anymore. :( why why why. the class is full. argh now how am i gonna get my flat stomach and slim arms. hehehe. ok next resort is SHAPE, the mag. courtesy of my brother's girlfriend's mother. hahaha. though i thought the cover of the first issue seemed to SPEAK to me, u know with all those things like "zap trouble zones: abs, arms & thighs"...but it was $5 - too ex. and a bit ridiculous to buy this kind of mag. i'm actually not that serious about slimming down. no i'm serious. i may act as it's the end of the world but actually, it doesn't bother me that much really. i just wish i could look better but it's nothing more than that. why be so miserable over this kind of thing in the first place? my mum always tries to remind me that i should be grateful for what i have. and i am!! count your blessings and you'll probably run out of numbers. hehehe.

tomorrow got lecture at 8 am!!! :( but i took a nap just now so i'm still up. then for dinner i ate my mum's famous chicken wings heh. super nice. ate like A LOT. oops. oh...but IT'S OK! NEVER MIND! I'M GRATEFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE! hehehe. goodnight~

haha wow, first time i'm home so early... like before noon i reached already. later can get to watch showbiz. finally!! haven't watched it since school started. i don't know why i like it haha. the guys are funny but sometimes their show is so lame. :p

so the quiz today was fine. thank God i didn't fall asleep during it or something, coz this morning i woke up at 7+ to mug. but in fact i was feeling quite energised. hehe. kept shaking my legs. hahaha. and i was trying to use my common sense to do the quiz. HAHAHA. my teacher kept smiling mysteriously each time he walked to my desk and looked down at my paper. haiyoh!! was that meant to be reverse psychology or intimidation or something?? hehe. marketing is always interesting and fun. oh my teacher claimed that he wasn't trying to race us last week. it was terence who was endangering our lives. haha. and all he could see was the girls squashed at the back with their mouths wide open and gesturing wildly. haha we were indeed screaming. haha ok maybe it was just me.

oops past 2:30 already...time for showbiz. heh.

isn't that song meaningful... :) this place is not our home, we're just passing through... things on earth are temporal, here today and gone tomorrow. so don't hang on so tightly to them... and when you're having so many conflicting, negative feelings inside you, God will calm them. He will catch you when you're falling. ahh i just feel so secure and loved. this song spoke to me... i hope it speaks to you. :)

this week has been the most taxing so far. like, four assignments due or something. plus a marketing quiz tomorrow. the word 'quiz' is so misleading. it sounds like something easy. we all know it won't be. haha. i haven't started studying yet. i think my study mode only kicks in after 10 pm or something. horrible right? no wonder pimples are appearing on my forehead again. what happened to olay? how come it doesn't work wonders for me anymore... :( this morning i woke up real early to rush my radio assignment. thank God the inspiration came. :) i ate a lot of milo puffs for breakfast. then i had lunch with my friend and her husband at the south buona vista duck rice stall. not bad eh! but how come everything famous always has 2 of it? like katong laksa, jalan kayu roti prata, and this duck rice thing.

hols in like 2 weeks' time! i can't wait. :) we'll be going to malacca for a few days. i'm looking forward to it because our last holiday to rompin was so relaxing. but then this time i think i'll want to do some shopping so... hehe. i also wanna visit my friend, i miss her boys so much. they're so cute! but the older one keeps dao-ing me. argh. and the younger one fell down the stairs in my house. wahhh. hahaha. i have a lot of friends with kids already huh? hehe. you should see the pic of the thai baby boy i have on my desktop. you'll love him. i love kids. :)

this week's 8 days is pretty good. :) jacelyn tay, daniel ong and beatrice chia. beatrice chia is always so funny! she's so outrageous. i still remember cracking up over her email interview with the sunday times months ago. but i'm still waiting for david tao to appear on the cover!! :p oh last week was kinda like penpal week. hehe. received stuff from my swedish, german, korean and french penpals!! so cool!! but i haven't written back yet. :( oops. it's just that the right mood hasn't come along yet... my korean penpal sent me earrings and an anklet even though she was busy mugging! still is. you know how we always think we're suffering over here? apparently the south koreans have got it worse! those poor things. my french penpal sent me a tape full of tori amos' songs. she's such a great fan of tori amos. heh. well i always appreciate truly talented musicians. just like you know who... haha.

is the great singapore sale ending this week?! the end of the sale is usually very good!! that's when they really slash the prices, i think. maybe i'll make one last mad rush for it after school on friday. hehe. yesterday at my school's bazaar's last day i bought a bag and a t-shirt! half-impulsive and half-paiseh coz i stood there for so long. i walked away from the stall with the strange feeling that i got cheated. :( true enough, my mum thought my buys weren't worth it. sigh. but anyway, can't do much about it now. except to stop spending from now on. i must be a good steward of my money. :) things on earth are here today and gone tomorrow... you can only have so many clothes and shoes and bags and accessories... but you won't die without them. so just live. :)

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth

Would care to know my name

Would care to feel my hurt

Whom am I, that the bright and morning star

Would choose to light the way

For my ever wandering heart

 

Not because of who I am

But because of what You've done

Not because of what I've done

But because of who You are

 

I am a flower quickly fading

Here today and gone tomorrow

A wave tossed in the ocean

A vapour in the wind

Still You hear me when I'm calling

Lord, You catch me when I'm falling

And You've told me who I am

I am Yours

 

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin

Would look on me with love

And watch me rise again

Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea

Would call out through the rain

And calm the storm in me

 

Not because of who I am

But because of what You've done

Not because of what I've done

But because of who You are

 

I am a flower quickly fading

Here today and gone tomorrow

A wave tossed in the ocean

A vapour in the wind

Still You hear me when I'm calling

Lord, You catch me when I'm falling

And You've told me who I am

I am Yours

hey!! i really really like this new design!!! hehehe. took me a long while man, to figure out how come everyone with new blogs had such nice templates!! then i finally realised that blogger put in more stuff. haha. i love the spots!!:) and now i got a chatterbox! seems like that is what everyone is having on their blogs nowadays. looks nice anyway. i'm fine with anything. took out the song though. just didn't work with the template. hmm. this html thing drove me crazy this afternoon man. i came home at 3+ and wasted my time on it. sigh. i was hoping i would do some work lor. tomorrow morning must wake up early and do. coz this weekend i'll be very busy, with Youth Sunday!! haha i think i've been influenced by the pumpkin gang's blogs. now i write more singlish... not that it's bad (lah)! haha. anyway, i STILL need you, mingen!! heh. i need you to help me figure out a whole lot of html stuff. :)

today was fun, coz of marketing tut. we kena suaned again hehehe. i seriously freaked out coz i thought my teacher was poking my precious screen. :p heh oops. it has already suffered from the grape juice. let nothing more happen to it... haha. then later we squeezed into terence's nissan (which made us appreciate the pumpkin a whole lot more) to go to adam road hawker centre for lunch. along bukit timah road, my teacher came along and i screamed. haha. think i really gave fel a heart attack (sorry). anyway, he was so funny. wanted to race terence. hello, we were all packed like sardines (5 girls at the back) lor!! i screamed for our lives. hahaha. all the way down bukit timah road. then terence got lost and we ended up at thomson!! haiyoh. hahaha. that's why it's always an adventure. actually wanted to go to PS after lunch but no time. yesterday went to ebase and the clothes there very nice, but not me, right? hehe. their budget corner quite exciting. hahaha guess why....

i couldn't believe that there wouldn't be any socpsyh tut next week until i think i drove the teacher mad. hehe. that means that next fri school will only be from 9-11 you know. isn't that rather unbelievable?? haha. but next 2 weeks really got a lot of things due. sigh. to think that i still haven't found my motivation to do any of the work yet... heh.

wednesday was boring. i missed the pumpkin gang a lot. haha. sorry, just came up with the name. thursday was better coz we had radio. haha the buggys/buggies are like our fixed spot for recording already. was very thirsty but then i couldn't get the water cooler to work!! it was very embarrassing coz the guy in front of me could. humph. then at night it was my last thai class. my teacher gave me the thai keyboard sticker coz i just realised that i can install the thai font (and others, like jap and korean) into my comp. heh. so happy!!!

i've eaten 4 different kinds of pau's in like two weeks! can u believe it??? tiong bahru, ho kee, clementi, and another one. ahhhh i'm gonna stay away from them for as long as i can. heh. tomorrow me and the firefly gang are gonna bake brownies for the youths. :) i'm gonna learn pilates in august! haha yes, for real! believe me!

well it just seems like ever since i started school i haven't been in the mood to blog... maybe coz sch is routine and nothing like the freedom i had for the last 7 months. now i don't really have anything i want to say...hmm...but i guess some of the interesting stuff i've done this week is going to ghim moh market for lunch (where i met 2 of my old classmates!), then -this is funny- getting a sudden flash of inspiration to go down to holland v for a mad spot of shopping. glad my friends enjoyed themselves. i'm the so-called F&B manager of my group of friends hahaha... coz i live in the west while all of them live in the east. so i have to think of where to eat and stuff... but it's great to have a friend who drives. really appreciate it. but most of the time we have to rush back to school hehe. always an adventure... anyway today i carried my dictionary, laptop and textbook to school but had to go eat ice-cream with friends after that. so i passed my dictionary and txtbk to him hehe. will probably get them back tomorrow or thursday... oh but something really really embarrassing happened after that. i got down from the bus and was crossing the road when suddenly my right slipper flew off my foot and landed quite a distance in front of me. i could have died!!! imagine all the drivers in their cars laughing at me!! :( my worst nightmare came true!! and that is why i've never liked crossing roads. hehehehe. sigh. grrr... i'm wearing sandals from now on! oh yeah, x:odus (is that how it's written?) is having a sale and their slippers are like $19.90! the designs are not bad too. but i tried them on and they kinda came off while i walked around. so GOOD THING I DIDN'T BUY AH. heh. if not i'll never cross a road again. anyway, decided to wait for the black charles & keith slippers to come back again. plus now got vocher from nkf...hehe. well that's it for now i suppose. dunno when i'll write again. oh tomorrow i'm going for the showcase of best tv commercials from 03/04 at fort canning green. they'll be showing royston tan's censorship-satire "Cut" too! i think it's a really good deal. can't wait! plus will be meeting bern they all... will be fun man. haha. yeah yeah, today ate ice-cream after lunch, then venezia ice-cream after school, then honey glazed chicken for dinner. die!!! heh. now suddenly i feel like blogging more. haha. but i gotta do my marketing project...so cya.

ohh...i wish that i had blogged more regularly. haven't done so since school started. now i have lots to write and it's daunting. anyway, school has been great on many counts. this really amazes me. i actually like all my modules and lecturers!!! haha. i don't think i've ever been this happy in a school before. not that i'm SUPER happy or anything, coz how happy can you be in school right. but comparatively...yeah. i'm so glad that i'm here now. to think that seven months ago...things were so uncertain for me and i even came to the point where i didn't really care if i studied anymore or not. because i'll probably end up as a housewife one fine day!!! why do i need to study so much?? hehe. ok anyway, i'm really thankful for the way my life has turned out. it sure looks different from what it was a year ago. i've done everything: bummed, worked, shopped, watched TV, slept at unearthly hours... in these seven months. and now, here i am, doing mass comm...which is really very interesting indeed. i can safely say that learning seems much more meaningful to me now, which was what i was looking for in the very first place. i can't believe i've really found it!!!

ok so let me tell you what i'm doing in school. there's marketing, which probably is my favourite subject. plus, the teacher's SUPER FUNNY. how do i describe it? i think it's called deadpan humour. i don't know. but the thing is, he's soooo funny. and he teaches well too. i really like marketing. maybe i'll be a businesswoman next time. heh. and strategise the whole day long on how to kick away all my competitors. all my teachers teach well actually. my writ comm teacher is also a rather witty guy and his style of teaching is so clear. he's got to be my best english teacher. at least now we're dealing with real stuff and the real world, and not writing essays to prepare for the exam. everything was geared towards the exams, wasn't it? and he plays movie clips (finding nemo) and MTVs (kylie minogue, ahem) during lectures so SCORE! for him. radio production is probably the most practical module this sem. i'm actually quite intimidated by it. heh. coz it's practical stuff! you gotta DO stuff! that involves...machines! i'm so bad at that kind of thing. i still am not even sure how to use the MD player. hehe. but at least radio has opened my eyes...to things like, you can listen to radio on the internet. ha ha. how swakoo have i been man??? i really had no idea i could do that! until i had to do an assignment which required me to breath and dream radio. then i found out. and started tuning in to 933. i like chinese music! nothing wrong with that. i tuned in for less than a week which was suicidal since i was so unfamiliar with it but thank God for sending my ex-Sunday School teacher who listens to it like everyday. the whole day. heh. moving on, there's web design & comp graphics. i like that too except for the fact that it's 3 hours long. but anyway, i'm just real glad that i'm learning how to utilise my comp to a greater extent after spending so much on it. which by the way! the other night, i almost killed it in the most tragic manner. grape juice. sounds innocent enough but it isn't. i was happily eating my grapes and everything was going fine until my. last. grape. i was already down to my last one!!! but it had to happen. it had to... i bit into it, and the juice SPLURTED ALL OVER my keyboard and onto my beloved screen which incidentally, i wipe faithfully everyday like someone who's just bought a BMW. i almost sent my family into operation laptop CPR mode or something. out came the hairdryer (my brother's idea) and the spectacles cloth. but up till this day, i still get my heart in my mouth whenever i hear some crackling coming from my dear speakers. i would love to think that it's just the radio transmission...the poor radio transmission...sigh. ok anyway back to webgra. we are learning photoshop and next it's dreamweaver. i think there's html too. so i'm really seeing the value of this module. heh. lastly, there's social psychology & communication. the thing is, the lecture is first thing in the morning on Mondays, and the tutorial is the last thing in the afternoon on Fridays. so i don't think i've actually grasped much. just bits and pieces here and there about self-perception and stuff. so someone please buy me those special coloured glasses which would make me think that i look like a million bucks in the mirror. :)

yeah so that's my modules. the timetable isn't so bad after all. my lunch breaks are two hours long, and i have a classmate who drives this orange thing which we all affectionately (of course) call the Pumpkin, so that means we head out of school for lunch. just that he's a dangerous driver driving a dangerous car. we'll need helmets and insurance next. haha.

i don't dress up at all but i do love the freedom of wearing my own clothes and not uniform... it's just so much more comfortable to be clad in jeans and t-shirt for school. oh yeah but i've bought like 4 tops within 3 days. BUT i got them at like $6 and $10 so DON'T say i'm a spendthrift! but anyway, most of the time i'm in my jacket coz i get cold so so easily. heh.

what am i so thankful to God for? i can't really remember specific examples but i can remember that He took real good care of me when school started. still is. you know how it's like when you are in a new environment and chances of things going wrong are so so high... but it hasn't happened to me. and little things just keep coming my way to help make school much more bearable and can i even say this, enjoyable. haha. but well for one i'm thankful for the laptop. at first i wasn't thankful enough but now i am. especially after the grape juice incident. i'm thankful that my parents have the ability and the willingness to get me this laptop. the same goes for my handphone. and clothes. and shoes. basically, everything. i really feel so fortunate! but all these are just TEMPORAL things, you know? i think what's most important to me is that these things reflect God's and my family's and my friends' love for me.